Snapshots of the conversations that are had between anxiety and I: the things we fight over, the discussions and debates we take part in and the struggle to reason with irrationality. Some of these are based on past events or reoccurring battles, some on more recent occasions, and some are simply extrapolations of experiences I’ve had.
Me: Ohh, that cafe has a sign in the window! Hopefully it’s for a job.
Anxiety: Nah, it won’t be, they never have job adverts up.
Me: Well they must do sometimes, they can’t keep the same staff forever.
Anxiety: Of course they can! Come on, let’s go home.
Me: But we haven’t even given out one CV yet, and that’s what we came to town to do.
Anxiety: Relax! It’s fine, we’ll just look for jobs online.
Me: But it looks like they might have a job, we might as well pop in and chat to them.
Anxiety: What’s the point? They’ll probably have an advert online too, everyone does these days.
Me: Hey, don’t mess this up for us, you know as well as I do it creates more of an impression if someone physically hands in a CV.
Anxiety: Pff, but what kind of impression are we going to give them…
Me: A good one of course! We can do that!
Anxiety: …
Me: What? We can! You don’t think we can?
Anxiety: …
Me: Why not? Are you going to tell me why?
Anxiety: Do you really need me to?
Me: It will only go badly if you decide to speak up, it’s just a barista job. We have the experience for that.
Anxiety: I don’t know if we do, we only did it for a few months and that was a while ago. We’ve probably forgotten all of that.
Me: …
Anxiety: Oh and we’re not wearing the right kind of clothes for that place. It looks too hipster.
Me: Too hipster?
Anxiety: Yeah it’s cool in there. The people who work there are chill. We are not chill.
Me: …
Anxiety: That’s why we’re going to leave now, it’s not for us. We can’t do customer service, or memorise menus, or work shifts with cool people, or do latte art, or look nice in that uniform, or –
Me: Shut up! It doesn’t matter, I’m going in.
Anxiety: No no no, stop, you haven’t thought about this enough. You’re making a decision too fast, stop!
Me: No, I’ve thought about it too much. Be quiet, I need to concentrate.
Anxiety: Oh my god, oh my god, oh my –
Me: “Hi, I saw the job advert in the window?”
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Take that, anxiety!!
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Update us what happens nxt?? (Also, this is me for how many months now)
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It’s becoming easier to do things like this but it’s still definitely a struggle! Thanks for commenting 🙂
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God bless our journey! I hope we get into a nice job ghat we want
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Yep. Forge ahead. Forget what anxiety whispers.
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Thanks☺️
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I can definitely relate to this. But it’s always great when anxiety doesn’t win in the end.
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Yes that’s exactly it! Thanks for commenting lovely x
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This is something unlike I have ever read before but DAMN GIRL I LOVE IT!
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Thank you so much, I really appreciate it!
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I absolutely LOVE how you’re writing about anxiety! It gives readers a really honest insight into anxiety! Lots of love, Kath (originally from bingingonbeetroot!) X
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Aw thank you Kath ❤ That's so kind xx
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Oh god I can relate. Anxiety is exhausting
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It really is, thanks for your comment!
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I enjoyed reading this so much! It’s so alike how it feels to have anxiety! Great post x
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Aw thank you so much! So kind x
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this is so relatable! my social anxiety always gives me every reason as to why i shouldn’t do something i need to do
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Yes that’s exactly it! Thanks for commenting x
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Really interesting post! Anxiety sucks, but I enjoyed reading from your perspective. Keep fighting it!
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Thank you! It certainly does!
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As someone who deals with plenty of anxiety, I can totally relate to these thoughts. When you’re job hunting, you really just have to go with your gut, even if there isn’t a job ad in the window, it never hurts to ask! You never know if they really actually would rather have you than someone else.
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Thank you lovely! Yeah that’s true, a great way to look at it!
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