Snapshots of the conversations that are had between anxiety and I: the things we fight over, the discussions and debates we take part in and the struggle to reason with irrationality. Some of these are based on past events or reoccurring battles, some on more recent occasions, and some are simply extrapolations of experiences I’ve had.
Anxiety: Why are we doing this?
Me: Huh?
Anxiety: We can’t make decisions, we shouldn’t be here.
Me: What?!
Anxiety: This requires a decision! A big one, a fast one! Hurry up, we have to –
Me: Seriously?
Anxiety: What do you want? No, no, I’ll choose, I’m fussier than you.
Me: Do I get a say?
Anxiety: Agh no I can’t do it, you choose. Quickly!
Me: Hmm, maybe we can have –
Anxiety: We don’t have TIME for this, why is it taking you so long?!
Me: Just give me a second.
Anxiety: Everyone else knows what they want, they all know, we don’t. Oh my god, they’re looking at us, they want to order. Someone’s about to come over, have you got something to say because I don’t, can you please –
Me: Okay, okay. That one.
Anxiety: No we can’t have that, what if it’s too spicy?!
Me: Fine, what about that one?
Anxiety: Maybe. Are you sure? I’m not sure.
Waiter: “Can I take your drinks order?”
Me: …
Anxiety: WE DIDN’T LOOK AT THE DRINKS MENU. How did you forget that? Was I meant to remember? Drinks always come first! How are we that stupid. We look insane right now, our hands are shaking, we’re taking too long to respond, oh god, oh no, he’s definitely noticed, SAY SOMETHING.
Me: “Um…”
Anxiety: Not that! ‘Um’? What’s that even supposed to mean?
Waiter: “Need more time?”
Anxiety: Is he smirking at us? Probably at the ridiculous blush colouring our cheeks. Or the fact we haven’t ordered a drink yet like normal people do. We can’t do this, let’s never do this again. This was –
Me: “Please.”
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Anxiety can really suck! I hate having it. But I think I am learning to live with it. This is a good representing of some anxiety. I enjoy reading your posts xx
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It really can. Thank you Lauren, it can be difficult but I think sharing our thoughts helps! xx
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Yes definitely and knowing we aren’t the only ones feeling that way helps as well xx
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I love the way you write and I can so relate! I hate when people come over and you feel pressured to know what you want. It’s the worst when you’re immediately asked.. stress levels at critical level. My silence and sweating is usually followed with I’ll come back.
Great post as always 👍🏻
Siobhan x | http://www.veganbabelife.co.uk
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Aw Siobhan, that’s so lovely of you. Yes that’s exactly it, like just give me one moment haha 🙂 Thanks for your thoughtful words x
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It’s totally true. I honestly love what I’ve gotten out of this pod. I need to read more people’s work.. I really love the comments and engagement with my followers 😊I hate rushing things and it’s always so hard to chose what to eat.. there’s also so much choice. A gal needs to consider her options carefully ha. You’re so welcome! 😘💗xx
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Me too! Engagement is a lot of fun. Haha it is a tough choice❤ xx
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It is. I love connecting with people. And everyone has such lovely comments which makes doing this really worthwhile. It’s nice to see that people actually like reading what I write. Xx
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Ah! Anxiety is just completely pants😩 But so important to be spoken about and to reassure others, thanks for much for sharing xxxx
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Very true. Aw thank you lovely xxxx
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I really love how much these posts make me giggle. I had this exact conversation in my head in every cafe I visited in Bruges this weekend. It’s something nice to know that you’re not the only one trying to silence that anxious gremlin! xx
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Thank you, that’s so nice of you! Aw it sucks to deal with, but yes it definitely helps to know we’re not alone xx
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This series makes me realize how im not alone in this journey (bc I thought most people my age are so…ynow). I can totally relate with every line. It’s such a struggle.
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I’m so glad this makes you feel less alone! It can be tough to deal with
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I usually try to make decisions ahead of time to avoid this exact same conversation 😉
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Haha same! I normally look up the menu online before we go out 😂
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This is why I love apps such as Uber eats. I don’t have to go out and I don’t have to call people I can just type it in and hide awah
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Hahaha that’s a good point
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Ordering food can be so hard. Especially places like Subway where you have to put together your food. I’d love to do that but I always end up playing it safe. I’ve had so many similar conversations in my head, just like you wrote about it! You did amazingly at depicting that! S. xx
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Yes I totally agree. Aw thank you so much, it’s nice to hear people relate to this! xx
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This made me laugh because when anxiety is rampant you can feel like you are drowning in your own thoughts but when you dissect it out like this and read it back to yourself you realize how irrational it really is. I remember when I learned how to identify these distorted thoughts and analyze them and that helps you so much! Thanks for sharing such a relatable moment!
Jani from http://www.mylifeinmedicineblog.com
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Aw I’m glad it was entertaining! Yes that’s so true. I’m happy you’re so in touch with identifying the thoughts for yourself, it’s quite a skill to learn haha
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I have no idea if I have anxiety, but I can totally relate to this. You put it so well. I’m always mocked by family and friends by having a massive meltdown when ordering food or buying something at the shop, it’s a tiiiny bit comforting knowing that I’m not alone!
jenny x | http://www.jennyrosee.com
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That can be really hard if the people around you aren’t supportive and understanding. I hope you know that there are a lot of us who have these feelings and will happily support you! xx
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As a server I have never really considered that someone might be experiencing anxiety in this situation, thanks for sharing ❤
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Having been on both sides of the situation, it’s a strange battle to still have sometimes that’s for sure ❤
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